Struggling a bit at the moment. I'm not enjoying all of the shared lunches, morning teas, barbecues etc. Although I love hanging out with friends and having a nice time it
always revolves around food and that's where it gets tricky. Because R is so totally allergic to dairy (he had
anaphylaxis from a chocolate pebble once!) I always need to take food for him as well as food for the shared lunch. And I feel like I need to make sure he gets lots of treat food to make up for not being able to share and eat what everyone else is. And then once we're there I need to keep a close eye on him to make sure nobody inadvertently feeds him ice cream or something silly, or that he helps himself to something he shouldn't. It's especially hard in big groups and I sometimes feel a little resentful that I can't relax and enjoy things a little more. Maybe I just need an early night? But no actually I need to go and ice the rocket birthday cake, and make something to take to the party lunch tomorrow and the BBQ dinner after that... which will all be lovely but I'm just a little tired.
He said to me at the supermarket today
"when I grow out of my allergy I can have that (kinder surprise)". Again I had to tell him that it's likely that he'll always be allergic. It's kinda heart breaking if I think about it too much. So I try not to. Same goes with him starting school and all the risks that go with that, it's not like we can keep him home to keep him away from yoghurt and milk drinks. I can only teach him what to do if something happens (like someone spills something on him etc) and hope for the best. I'm hoping really hard. x
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